I Love Him, BUT…

He’s beautiful, though
But I’m not.
Not from my thoughts,
Not from my soul.

He’s honest, though
But I’m not.
Prejudices,
I’m their prey.

I never thought
I could be that judgemental
But I am, that judgemental.
Stereotypes are unfortunately my thing.

One can’t find
Everything in one.
But who can make my
Mind ponder over it.

My demands are
A bane for me.
I’ll one day lose
All for me.

I wish to cease
My wishes.
I dream to be
What he dreams.

I want to be a part of his life
But my spinning head
Isn’t that right,
And won’t let me through this fight.

I don’t deserve to be loved,
With such a mind.
I thought mob was narrow minded,
But it’s me who is blind.