I was drunk, so I called him up
Asked him to meet me that minute.
He was asleep, said would come in the evening to me
I said,” Now!” and disconnected the call.
I knew he would come,
My love was powerful enough.
Got a call from him the next minute
Asking me the rendezvous, and the time to come.
I reached the place earlier
Sat there wondering why I did so.
There wasn’t any point even looking at him
No justified answer for calling him did my mind give to me.
I waited for few minutes and then
Decided to leave.
My heart was thudding,
I wanted to vomit
I continuously cursed myself
For fixing a meeting with someone who never valued my love.
I called up my best friend
Told her that I don’t want to see him
Although it was me who settled this meet.
She said, “come home, don’t worry.”
But his call interrupted our talk.
He said he was waiting outside the park
I revolted, “I am leaving.”
So as soon as I drove across him,
I waved him a goodbye,
He stood there, shocked, I think.
My mind battled if he would follow me
But for few moments there wasn’t any sign of him.
He suddenly emerged out of nowhere,
Driving beside me, demanding a hault.
I took a stand, emptied my bag full of beer bottles
Then looking at him to read his face.
For sure he would’ve cursed himself
After seeing me with those bottles.
He loved me, not enough, but yes
I used to see that in his eyes
And feel that in his kiss.
I was drowsy, I said him I didn’t want to see him
He asked me to stay, “Stay, for the last time.”
My eyes were watery, but
God gave me good strength to hold myself back.
We talked, aimless, dejected
I wished to make him feel the worse
For ruining me and strangling my heart.
I succeeded to some extent
But he was clever, said, “I’m happy, satisfied now.”
This hit me hard and I almost died a death.
I looked into his eyes
They appeared different,
This wasn’t the same man anymore,
Maybe he changed, or his love for me did.
We talked some more,
Said goodbyes and left.
I couldn’t sleep after reaching home
Concluded that he’s now gone.
Vowed to never hurt myself because of some unfaithful brat again
Moved on, poised, calm and sane.