I’m busy with my work
And all of a sudden
My body muscles contract
An abrupt nanosecond’s thought of you arise out of nowhere
Take me down the memory lane.
And I go weak in the knees.
I shrug, my hands begin to tremble.
Just a second ago I was all good, normal!
But look at me now
All lost, all mad.
Thinking of the past, the happy past
Of how I used to be in your arms
Warm under your skin.
Those pink lips knock the doors of my mind.
Your scent is suddenly felt by my nose.
For that second I feel us hugging.
That one moment brings about a trillion memories to life.
And I lose all my senses .
My happiness is seen in the eyes.
While my lips curl into a smile.
The next second I fantasise us,
Together, holding each other’s hands.
Sitting on a rooftop, waiting for the sun to rise.
Planting kisses on the face,
Living a life full of hopes and solace.
Ow, my stomach begins to ache
As soon as the reality take over my mind
In the next half of that moment.
And I’m all shattered, teary-eyed once again.
Back into the ekht world.
Cursing everything and everyone
For what I feel in the other second.
I realise it’s no longer true
Those times have passed
And could never be re-lived.
I feel abandoned, hopeless
Perplexed and irritated.
Oh! It’s just the third second,
And I’m already soaked
In the oceans of emotions.
It’s just three seconds
And I’ve gone through every single moment we shared.
Now I look at my surroundings
Yell at mind to return to complete reality.
My muscles flex, totally
Relieving me of that stress.
‘Back on the track’, I say
And continue to work with a diminished efficiency
Yet my heart sinks in that sea of disappointment
And denies to face the actuality.
Image by – Zain Khan.
P.s. it’s not me in the photograph.