We lie wasted on satin sheets
That resemble the colour of love.
The smooth fabric veiling our naked selves
And tenderly embracing our bodies.
I lay with eyes closed,
Absorbing the divine interaction
That ended few seconds ago,
Panting, smiling, nuzzling against his throat
Then gazing at the ceiling with drooping eyes.
I wake up happy and calm
All wrapped up in his arms
Unaware of when I slept
I take a deep breath, and draw myself back to the scene
And turn around to caress his face, but I freeze
And experience a sudden change of mood
The hitherto ecstatic demeanor changes to that of disgust
As reality takes over and I curse myself.
I get up, dress up and kiss him goodbye
And grab few beers enroute my home.
All night I rest on my arm chair
Thinking of what I’ve become now
I think about him and then you
And apologize to myself,
For I laid in the bed of an unknown
To punish myself for loving you.